I hate myself in swimsuits and lingerie. Now before you think I’m simple going to bash my body and I’m fishing for compliments, stop I’m not. I want to simply say that like 100% of all women I too struggle with self esteem and body issues. This is the first bathing suit I’ve bought in longer than I care to remember that I feel slightly good about being in. And I just want to let others know that it’s ok to have moments of doubt.
I recently saw a video on fb about achieving the “bikini body” that the media and society think I should have and I got to thinking about my own thoughts. Now roll with me through this journey for a minute, I hate long posts because I know most people don’t have the attention span to keep reading(I’m in marketing after all). We are all taught (men and women) that there are body ideals and if we fail to fit into that we are somehow less than perfect. I’ve read countless articles about obtaining said body and counter arguments about it. Let me say I know we are all beautiful and all that jazz, but how many times does that ugly face rear its head to say your not? (Ummm hellooooo right here!). And I’ve struggled with my own issues about my body and compared it to others.
I bought this majestic piece from Rigby&Peller for $200. Yes $200…because guess what, I’ve learned that quality will always triumph over quantity anyway when it comes to certain things. And also I’ve reached a point (35) where quite frankly my dear IDGF. I’m not buying a cheap swim suit and then be uncomfortable in it. In trying it on I had the associate in stiches laughing. Because I use sarcasm as a way to deflect compliments and insults, often making them before others. Because guess what, it hurts a little less that way. We live in a society that is constantly judging, from clothes, jobs, schooling, partners to even where you get your fucking groceries from. We’ve allowed social media to warp our ideals and judgements about people, and pump your brakes tanto, yea I’m guilty as well.
My friends tell me how good I look, and I see the response from the opposite sex (sometimes same sex..) but it’s not what I see. Often I see so many people struggle with body image and I wish it wasn’t so.
I guess I’m just trying to excercise my own demons about body issues and just to let others know it’s ok to have moments of meh, but don’t let that be your only moments. Look for people that inspire you and keep everything in perspective. Life is short, do you really want to be on your death bed wishing you hadn’t been so caught up?
Let me know your thoughts peeps! P.s also include some others I tried on 🤔 and thanks for listening. 😘